mymichele's Diaryland Diary
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All I ever wanted was for you to know that I carreerereeee
So. Half a decade. 1825 days. 260 weeks. 60 months. 5 years.
That is how long BB and I have been together today. We're not really celebrating.. all we did really was that he kissed my forehead at midnight last night, during the argument we were having, and that's about it. Remember when I mused that he should propose to me on this day way back in May when I was having those craptastic wedding fantasies? Yeah, it didn't happen. I didn't think it would.. let's just say that I'm not exactly prime marriage material at this point in my life.
We didn't even go to our regular pizza place, since he said pizza "personifies everything I'm trying to get away from." It's not really his fault, or my fault. We've just gone to Reno the last two years, and you just really can't top that.
But I'll shut up now. Last night wasn't that bad.. we finally got to watch the last two episodes of Boston Public that he TIVO'd and saved until the very last second. He cried during the season finale. It was greatness.
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I just really need to get my shit together, ya know? I need to tell myself that pizza does not have control over me. Guns N Roses forums do not have control over me. I have control over my own destiny, and all that crap.
I was thinking about it last night during Dawson's Creek (more about that later) when Dawson said that he was living his dream. What is my dream? What do I want to be living? If I could choose anything in this world, what would it be?
Sadly enough, right now my dream is to be a rock star. And I think it always has been. When I was 12, I started writing lyrics and dreaming about being in my own band. I want my own band, damnit! Too bad I can't sing.
I mean, think about it.. let's take.. ohh.. Guns N Roses for example. Slash and the rest of them were really only in the band from 1986-1994. That's 8 years of their life, right? From those 8 years they sold 80 million albums. Appetite for Destruction, their first album that came out in 1987, still sells like 20,000 copies a month. They will get royalty checks for the rest of their life based on 8 years of their career. It's just incredible to me.
Anyway. Also I'm fantasizing lately about moving to Las Vegas and going to UNLV for grad school. Wouldn't that be fun? I think it would be.
Guhh.. being this bitter about life is really quite exhausting!
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So, who wants to be the 150th person to add me to your favorites? I know you want to.. it'll be very exciting, I'm sure. Really. Uh huh.
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Soo.. there's going to be a new feature here on Thursdays.. welcome to..
MYMICHELE'S DAWSON'S CREEK WRAP UP!
Oooh yeah.. you know you're excited.
So, this week was the season premiere, and it was 2 hours long.
I missed the very beginning, so I'm not sure what happened with that. But after the commercial, Pacey (who appears to have lost some weight and now looks kinda hot) and Audrey arrive back at school, and for some reason they have Jack Osbourne in the back of their car. Since this is the only time Jack shows up during the show, I really don't understand why he was there except to gratuitously cuss and have it bleeped. We find out later that even though Pacey loves Audrey, spending the summer with her in Hollywood was way exhausting.
Then there's the storyline of Jack and Pacey being roommates. They find this place they love, but this hot british chick doesn't want them to live there. Long story short, they get the apartment because she likes the idea of having 2 big boy roommates because she needs the security.
Sooo.. Dawson and Joey? Yeah, they have sex. FINALLY. It was a hot sex scene, too. I think they look good together. But anyway.. they have sex and everything between them is great until someone calls on his cell phone and Joey sees that its some chick. She inquires about this chick, and Dawson tells her that he had a girlfriend back in California. Well, shit, all hell then breaks loose and they end the show with her crying because she told Dawson she doesn't want to have all this drama, and he leaves. It was all too frustrating.. why can't she just shut up and have wild monkey sex with him? She also gets a surprise birthday party from "the gang" which ends abruptly when they all hear Dawson and Joey fighting in the bathroom, a la "You didn't think about telling me about your girlfriend BEFORE YOU SLEPT WITH ME LAST NIGHT?!"
Jen's grandmother decides to go back to school and wow! It appears as though they have a class together! Imagine that! Then they have lunch together and this way cute guy starts talking to Jen and invites her to a meeting so she can learn about being a peer counseler. She goes, but freaks out when she sees all the touchy feely stuff. She's just not a touchy feely person, you see.
Pacey also gets a job through Audrey's dad, as a stockbroker or telemarketer or something. In a scene that was TOTALLY RIPPED OFF FROM FUCKING BOILER ROOM, this dude tells them that the hours are long and the pay is crap and if they have the balls, than they can have the job. It appears that Pacey has the balls. And he has the job.
That's all I can remember for now. I hope you are satisfied with this knowledge.
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So as I followed BB home on a 45 minute journey last night, I listened to Appetite for Destruction, and it became clear to me as to why it sells so many copies.
It's because it fucking rocks, yo! That album really is awesome.. it just gets you in the mood to go tear shit up.. I was screaming the songs at the top of my lungs during the whole trip.. I even lost my voice a little when I got back to BB's. It's just a really cool album.. if any of you even think you might like Guns N Roses at some point in your life, buy this album! You won't regret it.
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Speaking of Guns N Roses, there hasn't been any new news in a week! There's supposedly a new single called "Catcher of the Rye" coming out on October 15th, but nobody really knows that for sure. I want news, damnit. Come on, Axl.. give us something, yo!
In other news, 80 days until the concert!
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Axl picture of the day:
From the VMA's. I know you've seen that one before but I have 5 minutes before my class, so that's what you get.
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What was MyMichele doing a year and a day ago?
"Okay, yeah. We watched some hardcore porn in class today.
It was a little strange at first. I mean, how often does the teacher just pop in some porn? And sitting there with 100 other people watching some porn, it's a little ackward at first.
This class, by the way, is College Algebra. Haha! Just kidding. It was Sexual Psychology. It's a three hour class, and I usually leave before the class is over, but I was sucked in by the early promise of "viewing a movie that's sexually explicit." Yes, I'm deviant, and I'm a porn whore, what can I possibly say?!"
What was MyMichele doing a year ago?
"Four years ago today, I was a carefree 17 year old senior in high school, looking forward to my 18th birthday so I could officially buy lottery tickets, needing a ride to get my senior pictures done and go to the bank to cash the check I got working at the movie theater. Four years ago today, BB stepped up to the plate, swung the bat, and hit it out of the park. Four years ago today, my life changed, for better or for worse as they say."
1:18 p.m. - October 03, 2002
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